Gruess di Fruende.
Hey, I've got holidays and usually I drift away from God due to lack of self-disepline and lots of free time alone, during my holidays. Temptation to sin has gotten me already within 2 days of being 'free' from Uni. I hate it, its really fustrating because I know that Im sinning before I've physically sin, while Im sinning and after I sin. It is such a pain and always ruins realthionship with God, and I feel that I cannot talk to him anymore and become really depressed.
Trying to fill my God-vacuum with other stuff which will never fill that emptyness always lead s to depression for me and today I was really down.
After I had wasted the good part of this afternoon I got over my stubborness and read Psalm 51 and prayed it in my own words, asking for forgivness yet again. I personally find it really hard to ask God for forgivness when I knowingly stuff-up. But this prayer really helped and I feelt that God had forgiven me which he already has down through Christ. You know how books have the habit of turning their own pages sometimes, while I gave my little NIV free reign to flip itself after praying, and it opened up to psalm 32.
3 When I kept silent, my bones wasted away through my groaning all day long. 4 For day and night your hand was heavy upon me; my strength was sapped as in the heat of summer. 5 Then I acknowledged my sin to you and did not cover up my iniquity. I said, "I will confess my transgressions to the LORD "- and you forgave the guilt of my sin.
And thats what I read, and I thanked God that he showed my that passage because that exactly how I felt. And now I feel free form sin and free to talk to God as my friend and king again. Praise God that he is so mercyful and has done all the work for us already!!
So I guess why Im sharing this is to encourage you to ask for forgiveness straight away and get over your stubborness because He will free you from your guilt of sinning and forgive your sins and you can get on with life. God Bless you guys. Amen.
