The conference was about Evangelism, Gods part, our part and the purpose behind it, etc. And after the first talk, done by Phillip Jensen (got into international hot-water over gay priests in churchs... you may have come across that) my mind was stuffed, and for the rest of the conference I was just trying to figure out what it meant in terms of predestination and the elect. Just read Eph 1 and meditate on that for awhile. See I always thought that everyone with Gods help has the chance to be saved by Christs blood,... but its only the elect that do and are saved. And if it is God who "wakes us up" to our need of savalation and gives us faith to belive in Jesus then why doesn't God "wake everyone up", you know... Did not jesus die for everyone or only the elects sins?
Those thoughts bugged me the whole 5 days and even into the mission stage in Narrenbeen (north suburb of Sydney), because I felt that I could not tell people about Gods love for them and Jesus sacrifice for them, if they weren't part of the elect, I would have been lying to them to some extent.
I feelt like God was standing at the cross roads predestaning people to their respective destinations; "You can go to heaven, and you can go to Hell, Heaven, Hell, Heaven, and I don't like the look of you.. Hell".
And that really concered me, because the understanding of Gods soverentiy affects everything, about God and the world etc.
Then in question time; one of the ppl asked the speaker whether or not God predestinse people to Hell, which totally summed up my feelings and queries at the time. Jensen replied: "God has to do nothing to sent us to Hell, we're all already there, in his mercy he plucks us out of it."
And that sorted it all out, I had been looking at it like we where on no-mans land and God assigns places for us, which we clearly were not.
In his great mercy he saved me and you, not because of how we look, think, act, how athletic I am or how "really really redicoulasly good-looking" I am, on no basis whatsoever. That is not fair, thats mercy. Give me mercy everytime, because if it were fairness I'd still be in Hell, dead in my transgressions.
"Amazing Love, how can it be that my God would die for me"
Is that not the most silly, non-locigal, profound statement that exists, GOD dying for ME. A Human becoming a little yellow Lego figure and being killed decapitated by their little plastic swords and doing so in his love for those stupid sinfull idiotic Lego people. Thats nuts.
How mercyful and gracefully and wonderful and amazing God is!!! And travelling across the Australian contient, running out of fuel in the middle of the night, not showering for 3000 kms in a non-airconditioned, in 40 degree heat, Bus is what it took
And only yesterday a friend of mine told me what he had figured out walking home the other night; We get our 'right and wrong' from God, would not the source of our preception of 'right and wrong' (which is also blinded by sin) know better than us what to do, concerning predestination and not saving everyone? Surley God knows!!! and has accomidated stuff or whatever to his just and good will and plan.
Is not the the most, biggest single event in History, God becoming Man, not the Wars or the invention of the Wheel or the Interent, but Jesus Christs life!!! I learned HEAPS and thanks for all your support over the year. May you also know what I learned and feeling totally insignificant before the Cross and have a great start to 2005. Gott segne Euch.
Isn't God great?! A friend of mine has been asking almost the exact same question as that... 
