A Poem By Vash

[Zilch]

Crawling

I'm sorry I left You
I'm sorry I strayed
I'm sorry I ignored You
My spirit was frayed
I love You, my God
I am on my knees
Begging for forgiveness
I constantly need
I'm sick of the running
Sick of the pain
Sick of my feelings
That constantly change
Thank You for coming
To die in my place
So I can come back
After I spit in your face
You are my God
You're all I need
I fall on my knees
Forgiveness I plead
Please keep me tonight
And help me to say
That I will not leave
In your shadow I'll stay

[Zilch]

This one deals with teenage "romance". I knid of wrote it for fun

Staring

I'm sorry I stare
But I'm so afraid
That if I don't
I'll miss seeing the blue core
Of your shining eyes
I'm sorry I stare
But if I don't
I'll miss your glance
When I need it most
To keep focused on my goal

[YesIExist]

Being stared @ makes me uncomfortable

[Zilch]

for most people, yes.

[churchgirl111]

love the poems bro!!
Keep it up!
i can definetly identify with the first one....
praise God we can spit in his face yet he takes us back anyway...

[Zilch]

Woohoo! 100 posts!

anyway...

Second Chance

I ran on my own free will
Now I come crawling back again
The further I climbed
The more I realized I was just a man

Jesus
The name will never get old
Jesus
It means a second chance
For the runaways untold

The world threw me on the road
I found myself lying on my back
The further I climbed
More was the weight of my lack

A God of second chances
You will always be
Stand beside me now
For all eternity

[Zilch]

Succumb

This desire is rising within me
So fierce of a delight
My past will rise to haunt me
If succumb to it this night
It promises me happiness
If I follow it to sin
But after tonight will I
Try to quench the guilt within?
Instant pleasure seems a goal
Worthy of my time
I just don't like to see
Any reason besides mine
What happens if I sacrifice
My love, my trust, my hope
Will You be there to hold my hand
In darkness that I grope?
I see the clear reasons
I see the obvious signs
Wrong or right, lies or truth?
To be straight or misaligned?

[brantelg]

Sweet Poems, dude!

[Zilch]

Forget my poems!(stares at brantelg's avatar)woo...pshykadelic...

Anyhoo, thanks for the compliment. I'll post a new one tomorrow.

[churchgirl111]

lol the bobbing the bobbing lol
anyways now down to business...i like second chances...i always have a lot of respect for people who can rhyme in their poetry yet is able to make it flow to where it isn't obvious...
also love succumb!! i think you express those voices we here in the night very well...and i also personally think that your poem offers a great challenge!

[Zilch]

also love succumb!! i think you express those voices we here in the night very wellchallenge!

"Succumb" is actually my personal story. It's complicated, and only a few people know it. Maybe I'll tell it someday...elementary romance...who needs it...

[Zilch]

Anyway, it's tomorrow. Here's a new one.

My Friend, Anger

Anger is my friend
It lets me unleash
Anger is my friend
It lets me release
Anger is my friend
It destroys my enemies
Anger is my friend
It kills my feelings
Anger is my friend
It lets me wreak havoc
Anger is my friend
It loathes me when I have it
Anger is my prision
It is my curse
Anger is my prision
It is so much worse
Anger is a liar
It is a disgrace
Anger is a liar
Hope to never see its face
Anger is a killer
It has no remorse
Anger is a killer
Death follows in its course

[Lightbringer]

Everything i've read i liked. Poetry is a great way to put your thoughts out. Your structure is nice. and your rhythem is well placed. Im very impressed with your words and thoughts. .............. Lil heh.

Lightbringer // Aaron

[Zilch]

Thanks Aaron. It means a lot.

[true_noir_chloe]

I love your poetry, Vash. The "Anger" poem has great graduation of emotion. It did bring out how anger always grows and grows until it does kill everything in sight. I thought you expressed that poignantly.

Every time I read your stuff I just keep thinking this would sound great to music. Do you write songs, or perhaps are these song lyrics of yours?

[Zilch]

Most of them are lyrics. I use the influences of Chevelle, Tourniquet, Project 86, and Skillet, so if you read some of their stuff, you'll notice some of the similarities. God has given me this talent, and I'm still wondering exactly what to do with it. He gave me "Anger" this morning. Everything came to me in less thatn five minutes. If God is in anything that you do, you watch. That thing will blossom into something incredible. Heck, this thread is a blessing for me. Over 250 people have read my poems(or just one person reading them 250 times). This is a ministry I never thought I would have. Thanks for your support. It really does mean a lot to me. God bless you.

[Zilch]

New poem today!

The Reject

Point and laugh at the reject
Try wound him, "he won't care!"
Although you don't see it often
His worn and saddened stare
Out of your gaze, he wanders
This road, tries not to cry
He thinks too much of things
He's always asking "Why?"
His load of care you won't see
Beneath his baggy clothes
You're pious enough to judge him
Increasing his heavy load
He won't act just like you
You wonder why he's alone
But you won't care or help him
Your hearts are made of stone
This is he, the loner
Trials have worn him to the bone
Why is it, he is persecuted?
He calls his mind his own
He stands against the crowd
Like a star against the sky
He knows the One that holds him
The God that gives him wings to fly

[Zilch]

I wrote this to my future wife. It's pretty spooty, cuz i've got some rythmn problems, but oh, well.

No End To Love

My mind wanders at the thought of you
You're out there, somewhere
To think of how perfect you'll be
The wait seems too long to bear
God has set you aside for me
And he's done the same for you
My prayer is that you will save
To each other, we'll be true

Our hearts will become one
Nothing will break us
Nothing will shake us
Love will take all

My mind wanders at the thought of life
Together, we will stand firm
Until the world has fallen
To the curse of rust and worm
Fot the rest of our lives
We'll be deep inside
Ours will be a bond so strong
It will take even death in stride

In my mind's eye
I can see you
Walk my way
I can feel you
Take my hand
I can sense you
You're everything I am

[churchgirl111]

bro love "the reject" to me that is such an awesome poem...and i kinda know how that feels and everything so it really speaks to me!!!

KAWAII poems bro! Your putting me to shame man, i need to get some writing tips from ya *sob* Keep it up!!!

[Zilch]

Kawaii? Is that like Hawaii?

[Zilch]

This is my story of how I set out to help a friend, and in doing so, accidentally started liking her. This poem expresses my need to protect her from the harm that was done to her.

Beautiful Paranoia

I'm sick of being a seat away from you
So near, so far
From everything I saw you to be
At least you know my name
I'm sick of watching you run
When all I want you to do is stay
So I can protect you from the world
At least I'd know you were happy
I'm sick of the way your teasing eyes
Lock with mine, leaving me with questions
Unanswered, because you still love another
But why not me? Why can't you see?
I'm sick of the way your image
Is burned in my mind
Consuming my sanity
'cause I have to keep you happy
I'm sick of the way you can't trust
What he did was wrong
But will I be the same?
Probably. Supposedly.
I'm sick of being caught in the middle
As the sides rage back and forth in my head
You're not mine, I have no say in this
My wishes aren't your decisions
I'm sick of it
Will you ever see me?
The one that has been waiting for you to open your eyes?
For years?
Maybe it was love at first sight
But I've found that love isn't everything
It's cracked up to be
Maybe I'm just as paranoid as you
Oh, well...
Part of being a man is learning when to give up
But it still sucks
I'll just give up
Try not to stare
I can't give up
You're under my skin
I won't give up
Someday will bring
A binding of wounds
But for now
They're open
And you're pouring the salt
Everytime I look at you
Talk to you
Listen to you
I feel..uneasy
Like I know you're watching me
But are you really?
As much as the desperate tone in your voice
Drives me to madness
I can't do anything
I feel...inadequate
Like I should just leave you alone
But I would rather fail at something I loved
Then succeed at something I hated
Therefore...
I am driven forword
Regardless of odds
Regardless of old wounds still healing
Regardless of the pain I feel when I see you
You have become my beautiful paranoia

[YesIExist]

"my beautiful paranoid"?

sorry, that just strikes me funny

Do you think she knows how you feel? If so, what do you think of her reaction (or lack of)?

[Zilch]

I think she does. And the title is supoosed to be oxymoronical. Any other questions?

[Zilch]

This one's for you, Churchgirl!

Do I Know You?

You're someplace past Jupiter
Yet you seem familiar
I seem to know you from somewhere
It really is rather bizarre
Do I know you?
From where do you come?
Or are you really a sicko
Fat 30 year old bum?
You read all my poetry
And make nice comments
Giving glory to God
No matter the lament
I've never seen you use
A single euphanism
You have a love for the Lord
Opposite of Communism
Anyway, anyhow,
To end, I might
Just say to all the crowd
I GOT 3 HOURS OF SLEEP LAST NIGHT!

[churchgirl111]

lol awwww!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Kawaii...
hmmm...30 year old bum....no you can't let on to my secret!!! NO!!!

just kidding no da! really 3 well i got 5 so hehehemwahaha

[Zilch]

War of My Worlds

Breaking apart
Ripping at the seams
Death would be a pleasure
Or so it seems
The world I knew
Ran from me
Leaving jagged wounds

It's a tug of war
Of who wins the soul
For all you knew
You were just a body

Seeing nothing
Feeling pain
Maybe this time
I'll become insane
My ground was pulled from me
I don't know
Who I am to be

My mind is fuzzy
My steps unclear
My hands are torn
From people held dear
If I can feel something
This one thing I know
Breathing down my neck
Is the beast of fear...

Sorry bout the rhythm probs!

[Zilch]

Again, rhythm probs...it's some of my earlier stuff


The Meaning In This

Where does it all lead to?
Where does it all go?
I don't see the meaning in this...
Why must we suffer?
Why is there pain?
I don't see the meaning in this...

I don't understand
The way You run this earth
Why isn't evil gone
With one blow of your hand?
Can you hear our children
Screaming as they die?
Can't You find a different way
To cure the pain?
Why must we wait?
Why must we wait?

I look around at life
Death and destruction
I don't see the meaning in this...
Sometimes I look at You
My heart full of anger
I don't see the meaning in this...

I scream at you
I cry to You
Can't you feel our pain?
You speak softly in my ear
I became you
So I would know
Exactly how to cry with you...

[YesIExist]

"Succumb" is actually my personal story. It's complicated, and only a few people know it. Maybe I'll tell it someday...elementary romance...who needs it...

Tell it, brother.

[Kisa]

Great Vash poem!

[Zilch]

(laughs)I'm not sure I'm familiar with that style.